Friday, August 22, 2008
Before I get into the shadowy features of my experience for the past full moon, sometime eclipses bring about the entrance or exit of persons in our lives. The last full moon brought the exit of my boss, one moon before the lunar eclipse, as I am no longer working for the company that I was. Just recently, within the past few days during the time of the lunar eclipse, my brother lost his cat while at the same time I gained a new cat or kitten within my home. If you would like to read about that story, it is available here.
It could be that living in Sedona that we experience the earth's energies more intensely than other places on the earth. Ask anyone who lives here who is to any degree into evolving consciousness and they will likely tell you the same thing. Sedona is a place of intensified energy. People come here for a vacation and love it. People come here to live and find they are being "cooked" by the energy. One friend calls it spiritual graduate school. Not everyone here experiences the energy in exactly the same way, but nevertheless, these themes are very common amongst many people here. One friend and I had a very intense time during the past week. We both agreed that it had to do with the full moon lunar eclipse. I've been a moon watcher from way back, long before I lived in Sedona. The full moons have brought intensity to my emotional experience for most of my life, particularly since the 1990's when I became aware of this. But this past full moon eclipse was one of the most intense experiences yet.
Monday in particular brought about extreme worry and feelings of inadequacy, particularly financially. I could not be a peace and felt acute anxiety for at least three days. Some moments were more settled than others, but the worry and anxiety was near debilitating. I escaped to swim in the creek on afternoon to help. Staying at home felt like an emotional vortex crushing down upon, so I took off for another town for the day. It was clear that my dark emotional state was blocking any creativity I might have and keeping me from accomplishing any of my goals or success in my life. Eventually yesterday brought about more calm and peace as I verified my financial worries were not as bad as imagined and we got further away in time from the intensity of the full moon eclipse.
As Hurricane Faye swept up the east coast of Florida affecting some family members there, I experienced my own inner storm. Feelings of inadequacy lack, impurities consumed my inner life. The astrologers were right. It was a time for the shadow side. Karen Bishop writes that we are done for a long time with that and I hope she is right. It's time for me to get back to creating and writing. I'm more at peace today.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
going through important changes, and what appears to be a lack of fuel and oil is actually more about new develop-
ments in technology, new energy sources. Instead of using old fossil fuel, it’s about the discovery of new fuel. What
appears to be shortages of food is really about taking a look at how to take care of the biology in a new way, how to
feed it in a new way, how to grow crops in a new, efficient and natural way.
Changes in governments, changes in politics are all part of the process. It is easy to go into fear and worry about
what’s going to happen to the world right now, but this group of angels and humans know it’s just evolution. They
know that the change can appear to be chaotic, but the natural law of evolution and expansion are at work right now,
and you’re participating in it. Read this quote in its full context here.
Here is a topic worthy of comment. As I write these blog entries, I know that it is times of insight that promote these writing. But between the times of insight there are often times of difficulty and struggle. Even when I seem to have a breakthrough there is often a period of revisiting the old negative emotional states just to make sure, seemingly, that they have completely cleared. But to have some understanding that evolution is in process is helpful. As individuals we are evolving and changing, giving birth to new selves. The birthing process can be quite painful, especially as we rid ourselves of the old. Perhaps as our new selves evolve there is less and less of the painful process of dying to our old selves, or learning difficult lessons.
I think this is true for us as a human society too. Perhaps this is a really exciting time to be on planet earth. Human evolution as a society is at a maximum rate of change. It is a critical time on planet earth as exhibited by all the changes we've seen in the past 100 years especially. We've had a rapid growth of technology and human population just to name two. To see the whole process is to have hope and some understanding of something greater to come. Indeed, I look forward to the new source of energy, the evolution from fossil fuels. I look forward to a more balance economic system. If these things happen, then we are indeed living in one of the greatest and most trying times of human history.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Perfection is available in any given moment. It is a moment to moment practice of awareness of our thoughts and emotions. It is an effort, not one to strain, but just the right effort in re-training our thoughts and emotions towards happiness and goodness. It may take some time, a few days, weeks, months or years, but it is an effort well worth doing. In fact, it is the reason we are here on planet earth. The first step is to be aware, conscious of our thoughts and feelings. The next step is to gently train them towards that which is good. In that way our world is ours to create. It is time to awaken to the fact that we are the creators of our worlds and how we think and feel is very much a part of that. This is more true and powerful than we may realize.
Monday, June 02, 2008
The last full moon brought intensified emotions to the surface of my mind and heart. I was intensely angry. Situations at work were just getting out of hand, I thought. But in reality, how much was I really creating the situation? How much was I really going into an angry state? I believe I was creating bad situations for myself due to my own low self-esteem and negative beliefs about myself. I fought back. I got angry. That seemed to work, but it was not the ultimate answer. Ultimately we need to bring ourselves back to a place of inner peace. Accordingly, the world will begin to reflect that inner peace back to us. This is tough to do. It takes effort and awareness of our thoughts and emotions. It takes believing that we are not just victims of our lives and circumstances. It may take a while for our circumstances to change - believe me I am one of the stubbornest people to say this - but the key to change is our own thoughts. We must work to change our own thoughts, feelings and emotions. We must take a step back out of our small reactive ego minds and see and feel from a more conscious perspective. This is a quieter place, more still. This is the place where creative source begins.
When there is enough suffering and enough willingness to change then the effort can be made to come to this realization. For me, I've been saturating myself with information and programming myself to a higher vibration. I've been starting my day watching You Can Heal Your Life, a DVD about Louise Hay and her life. I've been listening to inspiring music. I've been listening to talks on CD by Abraham-Hicks. I've noticed that when I absent-mindedly just give into the TV, then my state of mental well-being begins to rapidly decline. As such, I become more susceptible to anger, depression and generally negative emotions. An effort needs to be made, I've discovered. I have to make a great effort each day, each moment to stay in a higher vibration. I have to say positive affirmation in the car on my way to work. I have to declare my workspace a sacred place. In effect, it is a constant effort at good mental hygiene. It is a shift in greater awareness. I'm working more with my subconscious mind. It is a reconnection with inner truth and source energy.
Oprah is doing a series on the internet that is very much in line with what I am talking about. This afternoon I listened to an online discussions with Eckhart Tolle and Oprah. You too can see this discussion online at this link. Tolle presents himself wonderfully as a very aware and wise man. He speaks in the first 90 minute session of the importance of finding that still quiet place of consciousness within. It is an important time in our history, a period of crisis Tolle says. As such it is also a time of opportunity and growth as our society has an opportunity to awaken to a greater extent than ever before. If this compels you, it certainly is worth checking out.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Since living in Sedona for the past year and a half, I find it a very intense place to be energetically. Some people come here and say they can feel the energy of the place and also there is a huge tourist interest in the local "vortexes". Generally the energy for someone arriving in Sedona feels really good. Many people are drawn to live here, perhaps because of how they feel when they visit, as with what happened to me. But after living here for a while that energy can be intense in not so wonderful ways. Ultimately, if one is to survive Sedona, you have to see all this as a purification process. This process is acclimating us to greater spiritual lessons and reality. At least, that's how I see it. This belief system allows me to continue on in Sedona.
Our thoughts are very important and really help to create our outer reality. There are a great many people in Sedona who believe this and live accordingly. Sometimes we can't help our thoughts as emotions and thoughts can arise from our subconscious, sometimes time and time again. It seems the burden of past experiences demand to come out and be purified sometimes so profusely that we can only assume these come from somewhere other than ourselves, perhaps past lives. When this happens I think that I can't carry on any longer. The pain is too great. It is a point of loss of all hope. As our physical reality reflects our thoughts and feelings, a vibrational match to what is inside us, our outer world begins to reflect this inner experience. For me recently it was so bad that I found myself having chest pains that urged me to seek emergency medical care.
I was able to take a short vacation to Florida to visit with my family. I felt a little better upon my return. But the return to work and Sedona was cause for more pain and anxiety. That week I began to feel less panic and more acceptance of the discomfort. That weekend we were blessed with beautiful sunny weather on both Saturday and Sunday. I used this time to go for a little hike in the Canyon on Saturday with my friend and neighbor, Linda. She guided me to a ravine that overlooked a stream. There was a place with nice rocks for sitting. She left me alone there while she went up ahead. I sensed that the quiet peace of nature and radiant sunshine was exactly what I needed. I got comfortable and focused my mind on my latest affirmations.
Since I was having chest pains and was concerned about my heart, I was advised by my sister in Florida through an email that week to say an affirmation from Louise Hay, the author of You Can Heal Your Life. It is specifically for heart health. That affirmation is:
I lovingly allow joy to flow through
my mind and body and experience.
Additionally, since I had been given a copy of Joe Vitale's new book Zero Limits I decided to adopt the phrases used in that book as part of the Ho'oponopono technique. Why not? Since I had heard for a while now about this technique being used by a psychologist to heal an entire ward of criminally insane patients in Hawaii, without ever seeing the patients. I also like this technique because it emphasizes that the healing is done 100% inside the person doing the healing. Those basic phrases are:
I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
So there I am sitting on the cliff side earnestly saying my newly adopted phrases. I had completely abandoned my old affirmations weeks ago including money and other material abundance due to the shock of my pain and health concerns. Those affirmations seemed trivial now as I realized the importance of affirming wellness, joy and love in my life. Did I want to live and be well and happy? This seemed to be the question. I sat with the vision of wellness and health as the nature sounds, spaciousness of the canyon, blue sky and sunlight absorbed my being. Healing comes.
The Sedona energies are intense. Getting some clarity about how one thinks and feels does affect reality, and how our apparent external world presents itself. I was starting to feel better and I looked over to a big rock and saw a small rectangular hole on its side. The hole was covered with a flat piece of red rock. Through an opening at the bottom I could see that there was something there unnatural, man made. So, I investigated to find inside an ordinary cash register receipt. It was for some unknown item purchased for about $5.71. But at the top of the receipt it said, "YOUR RECEIPT. THANK YOU. PLEASE COME AGAIN." Of course it was just an oddity that someone put that there, but to me in that moment it was funny and ironic. It was as if the universe or God had heard my prayers and sent me a receipt. I laughed and told several friends about it and they laughed too.
I have fared much better this subsequent week. The pain I was feeling is significantly less. While it appears that I have some more healing or purification to do, I have also made substantial progress. As I re-focus my thoughts on the new affirmations and the Ho'ponopono healing technique, I make choices in my life which affirm well being and new inspiration is arriving. I'm able to let go of the fear-based plans that consume me and create a clearing for growth, health and wellness. I look forward to finish reading Zero Limits and learning more about this technique. I get a sense of the necessity of focus and diligence of thought. This may mark an important shift in my awareness as I begin to first seek joy, love and wellbeing above all else. If one has these things, then not much else could be missing, I don't think. And when we clear ourselves of erroneous thinking, reaching a relieving void or zero point within us, we are then open to inspiration, the source of life and creation. At least this is the teaching of Ho'oponopono. The results seem good so far, along with the added spiritual benefits of being in Sedona, I look forward to learning and experiencing more.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
He spoke of very simple things -- that it is right for a gull to fly, that freedom is the very nature of his being, that whatever stands against that freedom must be set aside, be it ritual or superstition or limitation in any form.
"Set aside," came a voice from the multitude, "even if it be the Law of the Flock?"
"The only true law is that which leads to freedom," Jonathan said. "There is no other."
"How do you expect us to fly as you fly?" came another voice. "You are special and gifted and divine, above other birds."
"Look at Fletcher! Lowell! Charles-Roland! Judy Lee! Are they also special and gifted and divine? No more than you are, no more than I am. The only difference, the very only one, is that they have begun to understand what they really are and have begun to practice it"
His students, save Fletcher, shifted uneasily. They hadn't realized that this was what they were doing.
The crowd grew larger every day, coming to question, to idolize, to scorn.
"They are saying in the FLock that if you are not the Son of the Great Gull Himself, " Fletcher told Jonathan one morning after Advanced Spreed Practice, " then you are a thousand years ahead of your time."
Jonathan sighed. The price of being misunderstood, he thought. They call you devil or they call you god. "What do you think, Fletch? Are we ahead of our time?"
A long silence. "Well, this kind of flying has always been here to be learned by anybody who wanted to discover it; that's got nothing to do with time. We're ahead of the fashion, maybe. Ahead of the way that most gulls fly."
Monday, January 14, 2008
The current prevailing image is so stuck in the mud of a sorry reality of what's possible, as we see emphasized on television each night. We are told over and over again of war and destruction, the impending economic disaster and the stresses of modern day life in America. Our newspapers are full of it and talk goes on and on echoing the drumbeat of the horrific reality that we have become convinced that humankind is only too inept to create. The more this is reported in our media, the more the reality sinks in to our consciousness, to our subconscious minds and collective conscious. It would seem to me that our world is becoming quite ill. It is a nightmare that we all need to wake ourself up from. Where is the light of hope in our society? Where is the vision of peace, heaven on earth?
Perhaps it would be viewed as too polyannish, impractical and too good to be true. But from my point of view, there is no better way to change the world than to put a vision out there that is radically different from the way this diseased and distressed world is now. That vision includes world peace, harmony amongst peoples and nations. A true leader of great example will have to arrive on the scene to even get this image out there as a possibility. There is no doubt in my mind that if we redirected all of the resources and money in the world for war, we could easily feed everyone. There could easily be no want of anything for anybody. I believe there are infinite resources available for everyone, if only we were to attune ourselves from the leadership on down to an understanding of the possibility and reality of well-being. Well-being can flow from our leaders on down through our societies creating happiness, wellness and abundance for all people, if only that vision were there, fostered, nourished and supported.
We indeed live in dark times. Our national leadership supports war and a scarcity mentality which believes in controlling the world's resources by whatever means necessary. Perhaps it has been such a long time that we have forgotten. Perhaps it is time to reawaken to the light, to bring a new dawn to the possibility of living on a planet that is ruled by wise leaders of justice and compassion. May we find now an opportunity to look up to our leaders as examples of fairness, justice and light. May we now find leaders of compassion for all people and love for our earth.
The vision is the important starting point. Spread the seeds of the vision. Hold the vision for this greater reality to begin to take root. As more people begin to have thoughts of a higher reality, that reality begins to come true. It opens up the possibility that without the vision it could not come into being. Soon the cloak of darkness that currently binds our hearts and minds will rip open. The truth of all goodness and well-being will prevail once again.